Overload!

I'm starting to realise what it means to have too many eggs in the basket.
I honestly would not have expected having so much to do so late towards the end of the year and it's almost like a windfall of responsibilities.
Time management is probably my biggest issue and it's probably hitting me that it's about time I grew up and start being the person I'm supposed to be.

Besides the fact that I have my major exams coming in December, there's still
...the HCC youth group and upcoming Christmas events to handle.
...the KDU PAC prom to plan for next year.
...the part time job that's starting in 2 days time.

I'm swamped with work, losing my wits end, and I'm going on a continuous emo streak for the past few days.
I know it can't be good, but I need a way to manage my portfolio of responsibilities and execute my plans and time management accordingly.
I know this can only be the start of me becoming a better person...

Lets just pray I make it out of the next 2 months in ONE piece.

I'll Never Sing Of Love, If It Does Not Exist...

Men have always been on a quest to find love.
Fairy-tales were created with ideals and perfection as the theme.
Little girls dreamed of "forever" and "happily ever after."
Love was an idea of happiness and a bed of roses.

Of blooming red flowers and boxes of chocolates.
Sparkling jewelry fit for a queen and accessories to match.
Candlelight dinner with music seemed like the perfect evening.
And a dance to end the night, a kiss to seal the deal.

But I don't live in a world of ideals.

Being open means unnecessarily being vulnerable to be hurt.
Never loved for both the good and bad, perfection a fleeting desire.
Selfish personal needs always prioritised above compromise and love.
Broken hearts the common outcome, buckets of tears flow endlessly.

Regret, disappointments, and disbelief the obvious emotions.
The meaningless endings that are compounded by reality.
Who's to say that the scars and reminders will ever go away?
When love has become a taboo and a luxury only the optimists can dream of.



For me...
I'm tired of being impulsively optimistic.

It's time to bask in God's unconditional love.

Faithful You Are...

A statement used to ring in my mind...

"When nothing makes sense, look to God."

But now I realise one thing...

"In everything good or bad, look to God."

More now than ever.
Tomorrow is a better day. : )

Let Go And Let God!

Gah!
Bleargh!
Ugh!
Pfsh!
And any other expressions of frustration.

Past few weeks have been pretty frustrating.
When you're given multiple responsibilities, every little thing decides to divert from the initial destination.
It can be frustrating deciding what to do, which to tackle, and how to go about it.
But I've learned a thing or two when faced with circumstances that are unfavourable.

1. Stress is a result of poor time management. Proper time management, and most of the time things tend to fall into place.
2. Life will only become more complicated, and it never becomes easier.

But my biggest lesson, is this...

You either let circumstances overwhelm, overpower, and overexert undue pressure on you...OR you can turn to God and SURRENDER!

I'm still learning to let go and let God.