Saturday, November 29, 2008

As easy as goodbye...

Crush - David Archuleta
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush
What a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me
It's just too much
Just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we could be
Where this thing could go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But i know this crush ain't going
Going away

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging,
Spending time, girl, are we just friends
Is there more
Is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this
Into something that'll last
Last forever

Why do I keep running from the truth
(Why do I keep running)
All I ever think about is you
(All I ever think about)
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Going away
Going away

Christmas has always been meaningful to me and I absolutely love Christmas. Not only do I have a reason for the season, but previous years have always been really memorable moments. I've been reminiscing recently and this Christmas will be the ending of a great year, and my fresh start to a new beginning.

I'm proud to say that I've finally hit realization...

...its finally here, for real.


Friday, November 28, 2008

Throw it away, forget yesterday...

The Great Escape - Boys like Girls


Its almost Christmas yesh? Okay, so I'm exaggerating. Christmas is in about a month's time, but as I said in my earlier posts, I'll be putting up my Christmas wish list just for the fun of it. Of course if deep down in your heart you really love me (which I know you do) then you'd probably could surprise me with one of the mentioned items. Hence, you have one month to surprise me. xD

I'll separate the wishlist to both material items, and the stuff that I really want to achieve after Christmas (or better yet, during Christmas).

Anyway, in no particular order...

Mazda RX-8.

This has been like my dream ever since the first time I fell in love with it (Yesh, this is the only instance where I believe in love at first sight). You could try red, or maybe black.


Either one works fine for me.

Around the world tour. This is Switzerland. Such beauty...

The legendary Anfield. I wanna go before they move stadiums. Argh...

Green vistalite. likey.

A black Sony Vaio.

Any DSLR! I'm no professional, so it doesn't even matter what kinda DSLR I get. =D

iPhone. Or an iPod will do. For music purposes...

PSP! Argh, so portable, so handy, so yummy.

Finally, a new pair of Adidas futsal shoes.

See? Its not that hard. Take your pick. xD

Okay, now for the more realistic wishlist.

  • I wanna know God more than ever before; I just wanna delve into Him and live for Him the way He has planned and purpose for me.
  • I want my family and friends to be saved. I pray with all my heart that Christmas will not just be another festive season like how the world perceives it to be, but that each and everyone of you will find your reason for the season.
  • I want to finish my studies with a first class honours and then move on to what He wants me to do.
  • I want to make more friends and expand my social circle/network.
And thats all I'll ever need. I don't care if I don't receive any of the material items listed above (contradictory, but nothing else really matters when I have God) but I just wanna find my purpose of life that has been ordained for me. HOWEVER, you can still choose to bless me if you so desire to; I mean come on, who wouldn't want to have all those kinda stuff? =D

Till then, I'm off. I forgot to mention that I've been really caught up with practices, assignments, and presentations. Hence the semi-hiatus from my blog. Laterz...

Sunday, November 23, 2008

For the most part of it, you were always there...

This post will be one of a long post. So, I'll start with a picture, and you can then choose to AGAIN ignore the rest of the post.

Elly and Matt. Meet my mei, well at least one of them.

Looking back at the past whole year, I realized that year 2008 once again swept past me and left me behind in a daze. I've learned so much, and hopefully became a better person. 2008 has been like every other year, full of ups and downs, full of joy and tears, full of laughter and pain, full of satisfaction and disappointments. Mostly, I've realized that God has to be my main priority, and that with Him, nothing else in life really matters anymore.

Yes, the people around me are extremely important. Money is important. Hopes and dreams are important, but nothing else really matters when you've got the hope of glory, the way to eternal life. Year 2009 will be totally a fresh start, and starting today, I wanna start afresh and really live totally 100% for Him. He deserves the best.

Year 2008, I've learned...

...that time passes you by whether good & bad moments are the order of the day.

...the importance of friendship, and no matter what, friends are totally worth keeping.

...that friends come and go and there really isn't any point in regretting. appreciate every moment of everyday. Life really isn't half as fun as the people who make it so thrilling.

...some of the most biggest flaws of myself, and hopefully I'll correct them real soon.

...that heartbreaks take incredibly long to heal. I mean serious heartbreaks here.

...and felt the pain of seeing the person you love walk away with someone else. be contented with what I have, where I'm placed. enjoy and love serving God, because thats where I find true contentment and satisfaction.

...that God NEVER disappoints. Men may disappoint, but God NEVER does. take one day at a time, and never to worry about tomorrow.

...that its better to not expect than to expect and be disappointed.

...and tasted of God's goodness. I've been blessed with so much, and really God knows how to bless. I just wished I could be perfect just the way He is. cherish family and friends more and more.

...that crying is a form of release that God has given. Its soothing.

...some people will never be as mature as the standard you have set and I've learned to accept people for their shortcomings, cause I have many of my own as well.

...that we're all different and gifted in our own ways and never to compare.

...that the biggest disappointments and hurts come from those closest to you.

...that above all, God is sovereign and He's the best thing that has ever happened to me. If I were to let go of everything for Him, I would.

There's just so much more I could say, but I'll stop here. Looking back at the whole year of 2008, its been one heck of a roller-coaster. I thank God that I made it through in one piece and that His grace truly has been sustaining me. I have a month of 2008 left to celebrate and enjoy before entering into year 2009. Reaching the big 21 next year will indeed be something new.

I just know that next year will be better, cause with God beside how can life be anything but great? It will keep getting better and better, the challenges will increase in intensity, the problems will possibly get even bigger, but knowing Him more and more will overcome it all.

Dad was preaching about evangelism today and he popped a question "Do you know anyone who would die for you? Jesus Christ would...". I already knew the answer to that question. Besides family, I would die for someone...maybe even a few.

I guess I'll end this post right here. Cheers to a great year ahead and with December coming, to a great end to a great year. Onward to 2009!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

I break and crumble internally...

Lets start off today's post with some random pictures.

Seminar on Soft Skills Development for Graduates that was held at KBU recently.

Take 1. Matt and the couple. This was pre-commencement of the seminar.

Matt, Dines, and Lingz.

Okay, from here onward, the post is gonna get a lil emo-ish. So, if you are curious, read on. If not, save yourself the agony and close the window. = )


See this picture? Looking at it alone will speak volumes about his age. I was having dinner with mum at the hawker stalls nearby and this was the sight that greeted me. He's already past his retirement age and he's striving everyday to make a living, not to mention pushing his whole stall around everyday.

When I queried my mum about why people like him are still working, she answered that they can't afford to retire, and its possible his kids do not really bother making the effort to support him. In my heart, I broke down (and if it was possible, it would probably cry) and I felt extreme pain that goes beyond the boundaries of sympathy. No, its not something new.

Its a burden that God has given me for people such as him. As I walked back, I whispered a prayer for people like him. I know I'm called to do something, and I promise, if God gave me the resources to serve others, even if it meant for the rest of my life, I will do it. The tremendous burden and pain I felt inside was indescribable, and I promise I will do everything in my power to serve the needy. This is my call, my destiny, my mission, and the very purpose I'm here; to serve God and men.

Random thoughts of the day
1. Squash today really took away all my energy. I ran so much, it was crazy not to sweat.

2. I have some major filtering to do in life, and it begins today.

3. God is good. No scrap that. God is awesome. I'm setting my life straight from this day onwards. I wanna live for Him all the days of my life.

4. I miss being loved; but I've been hurt and disappointed too many times. I miss being able to care for someone; but I'm afraid to open up again.

PS: I tried. Second chances really do only come once.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Stay, but for a moment...

Its 12.33am and I'm blogging. Yes, I need my sleep...But first...

Happy Belated Birthday Li Anne dearest.

Don't mind her hair. Haha!

Happy 20th Birthday! You're as old as me. xD Anyway, may God continue to bless you richly in everything you do. One more thing...cousin meet up! December! Go plan with the banana. Here's Li Anne's blog. Go read! She's single and available, but very very strict when it comes to guys. So BEWARE! Hahaha! Free advertisement.

Next up...

Madagascar 2: Escape 2 Africa.

Watched this with my bunch of looney friends. Couldn't remember the first movie, so this movie was average for me. Seriously nothing much, though kids will absolutely love this movie. In terms of comedy, I've seen funnier...

Verdict: 5/10 Child's play, literally.

Things have been picking up really fast. I've got assignments on hold, incomplete homework, presentation deadlines coming up, Christmas practices going on, and all the other year end activities you can think of. So here's to hoping I make it through, in one piece.

On the other hand, I've had some random thoughts in my mind. So, here we go...

1. Dines' taste of movies are totally off. Har har har.

2. I need to exercise. Seriously, its been 1-2 weeks without futsal or any other form of exercise.

3. Christmas is coming. Lots of food ahead. Wish list yet to be posted. Soon, I promise.

More random thoughts coming up.

PS: That edited post on the other pictures of Awards Night may never come if the pace of life keeps at this level. xD

Monday, November 17, 2008

Baby you turn the temperature hotter...

First up...

Happy Birthday Gloria!

We celebrated Gloria's birthday during lunch break at Friendster Cafe, Damansara Perdana.

Friendster Cafe. Anyone wanna open up Facebook Cafe?

Glimpse of the birthday girl.

Rice with blackpepper, pickles and roasted chicken with brown sauce.

Ice Tea came as part of my set lunch.


Dan and Yan.

This is Dan; stoned.

Adam with his spagetti set lunch. Lousy pose. xD

Typical monkey.

Happy Birthday! Thanks for lunch. = )

Alright. I know I've been postponing this post, but here are some of the pictures from Awards Night 2008. The rest are on Facebook. So, go check for yourself.

The ticket.

The menu with some opening words of appreciation and thanks.

Candle light dinner. Romantic much ei?

Barney says rawr!

Lydia and myself post event.

Derrick must have been wondering what Lerida and Delaney were up to. Everyone was a lil on sugar rush post event.

Sibling love at its best. Sweet much...= )

Joseph, Matt, and Lerida.

She was one of the reasons for me being there. Proud of you...= )

Matt and Claudia, my multitalented sister. She won so many awards, I lost count. Very the proud of you. <33

Matt and the emcee of the night, Del. Somehow, I look weird in this picture.

Matt @ Old Town White Coffee, Puchong with the rest of the gang for yam cha.

Lookin' into the mirror once in a while never hurt anyone.

Their skits were incredibly hilarious, yet meaningful. The song presentations by both my sisters blew my mind away. Extremely proud of both of them. The company made it worthwhile the 20 bucks paid for the dinner.

Will update and add in the rest of the pictures soon.

That would be all. Time to get busy...

PS: I'm addicted to Burnin' Up by Jonas Brothers though I think they're gay. xD

Saturday, November 15, 2008

I sent you the tooth fairy...

Hello mello jello!

Argh, got updates, but no time. Hahaha! Will update on Awards Night '08 real soon. Some of the pictures are on facebook already. Will blog about it soon. = )

Just wanna wish Claudia...

Happy Birthday!


Happy Birthday mei. Hope you had a blast. You're maturing every single day and I can see that. I'm extremely proud of you (the reason will be revealed on my Awards Night post) and I'm glad that I'm somehow a part of it. May God bless you richly. Continue to be that awesome blossom sister. You make me proud.

Awards Night '08 post coming up.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

'X' marks the spot!

Itinerary for tonight...

Research, stay up late, and then sleep. Routine?
Matt does not really get to stay up late without a legitimate reason. And even with a proper reason, persuasion is very much needed.

I just want to stay up late 'cause I want to. I realize in this time of solitude, when emotions are heightened, senses are amplified, and feelings are chaotic, its just God and I.

Supposed to hand in my literature review tomorrow, but I'm extremely lazy to do anything much about it. A little research tonight, compiling it into words tomorrow, then maybe submit just a short draft for his nod of approval and go-ahead. Hopefully...

Me emo. Plurk is not working. Stupid bug. I feel a tinge of imbalance in hormons and thus the disturbance in emotions (not the force, mind you). Gonna sleep this off. Laterrrrzzz....

Wishing for a white Christmas...

A thousand and one apologies for not updating my blog. Been either really busy with assignments, or Christmas practices, or just plain lazy.

Before I move on to the main purpose of this post, here's some Birthday shoutouts. There are quite a few birthdays today though.

First up...

Happy 18th Birthday Khye-Ren.

You're finally legal! xD Supposed to meet up long time ago, but she got too busy and forgot all about me. Anyway, happy birthday! Hope you'll have a great birthday. See you soon. You owe me a birthday treat. =D

Happy Birthday jie jie Shirene.

Haha! What else can I say? The picture says it all. Have a blessed birthday! = )

Also, Happy Birthday to Tim and Ever. Don't have a picture of you guys, but its been extremely long since I saw the both of you, especially Ever. Pfft...
Anyway, have a blast. Hope to see you guys soon.

On to the main purpose of my reviews!

Quantum of Solace! Taken from

Caught this on the first day it made its debut. To be honest, I only went due to the fact certain friends wanted to go. My hunch was wasn't very good.

Verdict: 6/10 And thats the best I can give. Disappointing...

Good Luck Chuck. *Taken from

Caught this on DVD and its just another one of those comedy/romantic films. However, with Jessica Alba in it, who cares what kinda movie it is? Rawr! The plot is kinda predictable though, but I guess its still worth watching.

Verdict: 7/10 Jessica Albaaaaaaaaa!

*Note: Definition of hot/hawt = Jessica Alba. xD

Okay. Life has been catching up with me. Assignments are getting heavier and increasingly taxing on me. Christmas practices are ongoing. And I'm pretty much reaching the busy period of the year, the climax to be exact. Will update more frequently, hopefully.

Will stop for now. Back to assignments. Gah...

Monday, November 3, 2008

I look to Him for strength and comfort...

Malaysians are well known for their unique sense of language which brings about all sorts of weird phrases and exclamations that can only define Malaysian culture itself. Also more commonly known as 'rojak' which means a mixture of different variables or in this case, ingredients (languages).

Therefore, here's my shortlist of some Malaysian phrases that I'm sure will define the meaning of Singlish, Manglish, and all sorts of funny concoctions that anyone may come up with.

Malaysian Dictionary
1. Walaowei - Malaysian style for "Oh My Gosh"
Example: Walaowei, like that also can?

2. Go stan! Go stan! - Reverse (Normally shouted out in the Malaysian slang when asking the driver to reverse)

3. Fuyo! - simply means "Wow"
Example: Fuyo! The curry here so spicy.

4. Why ah? - The famous line concocted by my corny classmate which shows a sense of ignorance when in actuality its a phrase used to buy time.

5. Aiyo/Aiya - which means "Oh no" or any other such phrase that carries about the same meaning.
Example: Aiyo, why Liverpool can lose to Tottenham?

6. Die lor - The ever famous phrase that seems to come out everytime we Malaysians face a situation that is for obvious reasons negative. And no, we're not suicidal!

7. Chun - which means "Excellent".
Example: That car looks so chun!

8. Any other sentence that ends with "la", "ma", "meh", "lor", "ler", "leh", "wei" and "hor". There is no specific meaning to these words. They're just part of the sentences, flavourings if you will.
Example: Today so hot hor?

9. Cheh - which is an expression of disappointment.
Example: Cheh, you only got 9 A1's and 1 A2 for SPM? *overexaggeration is intented

10. Don't pray pray! - adapted from the hit series 'Puah Chu Kang Ptd. Ltd' comedy originating from Singapore. This phrase simply means not to take something/someone lightly. Something to that effect.
Example: This car very chun 1 leh. Don't pray pray!

Well, those are the only phrases I can think off. Will update once I've gotten the rest of the Malaysian dictionary compiled. My current mood does not allow my brain to think much. Yesh, I'm semi-depressed. Gotta talk to God...

Sunday, November 2, 2008

What if our love, it never went away?

Listening to: What about now - Chris Daughtry

This is my overdue post on the list of movie reviews that I'm supposed to blog about. So, hold to your seats. Here we go...

Eagle Eye!

After hearing rave reviews on this movie, my parents decided to catch this on the Deepavali holiday, which meant a free movie for me, plus free popcorn and lunch. xD

Verdict: 8.5/10

I'm a sucker for action movies. So if a movie gives me action throughout the entire movie, it'll probably be listed as my favourites. Anyway, this are all personal opinions. This movie was pretty good and the plot and action really combined and achieved synergy to create a movie that kept me on the edge of the seat. Michelle Monaghan makes pretty good eye candy, to me anyway. =D

Death Note 2: The Last Name

Yes, I'm that outdated. Did not want to watch it the last time cause I thought it was a horror movie and I hate horror movies. But after watching the first movie from this series, I was immediately hooked and my thanks goes to Barney for burning it into the CD for me. xD

Verdict: 7/10

Picked up after the previous movie and though it did tend to get a bit confusing towards the middle of the movie, I pretty much am satisfied with how the whole story turned out to me. Its pretty decent, but do not watch this unless you've watched the first movie. You'll be lost without the first movie I assure you.

Death Race.

I finally caught this after getting pretty much rather good reviews from those around me.

Verdict: 6.5/10

It was okay for me. Just a lot of killing, overmodified cars, and also loads of gore and blood spilled. There's eye candy in this movie though. So if you wanna watch it for that, by all means go ahead. = )

Forgetting Sarah Marshall.

Verdit: 5.5/10

Had some funny scenes here and there, but it didn't really cut it for me. It was just average in my opinion.

The Love Guru.

Well, I've heard some reviews about this movie, so I managed to get the DVD and have a look.

Verdict: 6/10

It got pretty lame at certain scenes, but it had its fair share of laughs. Mike Myers as usual does his usual stuff and portrayed the love guru in a rather hilarious manner. Of course the main reason I watched this is undeniably definitely without a doubt because of Jessica Alba! Hahaha! No kidding! Hawttttt!

Well, so much for movie marathons. Feel like ranting, but I'll spare the readers of my blog the agony. Till next time, have a good week.