Holding On To You...

I'm back with more updates.
This time though, updates will be on how my Raya holidays were spent.
No, I don't celebrate it...but that sure as heck doesn't mean I don't enjoy it to the best of my ability.
After all, how often do you get public holidays?

The Raya holidays basically were spent with the Harvest Crew when we had our own lantern party.
I have to admit though, most of the pictures were taken by the other cameras.
We were all pretty busy with the lantern making competition.
Nevertheless, it was definitely pure fun and great fellowship coupled with yummy food.


Pictionary to kill time. The girls at it.


Both teams going head to head.


For dinner, we had Dominos and a whole lot of other goodies.

We were then divided into 4 different teams to construct and complete our very own lantern.
All kinds of designs came up, and in the end...they each even had Biblical explanations for their reason of choice for choosing such designs.
Truly a night to remember.


Ah, brings back the kid in you...


Generally known as "The Poop". Second place was pretty satisfying. Pretty good considering we had very low expectations.


Guessed who I brought along.


Yes, it's us.


Snap snap...<3

Since I do not have the majority of the pictures, do click here for more pictures on facebook.

I continued my Raya holiday celebrations by spending the day studying and helping Nic with her revision.
After long hours at Starbucks, we headed off to Pyramid to catch a movie before dinner at Asia Cafe, Subang.


Java Chip and sandwiches for breakfast. Picture credits to Nic.


Books, notes, and calculators. Full fledged study day.


Booyah! Hahaha!


We got really random, and couldn't be bothered who was staring.


Almost finished 'lobak'. We were hungry kay?


Her blackpepper chicken chop.


And yours truly's chicken chop.


Gamer.

One word...OVERRATED! I honestly thought it would have been better. Guessed I came with really high expectations, but it all turned out just plain flat. The action was so-so, the plot was...wait, what plot?

Verdict: 5/10 Yesh, it's not as good as hyped. Pfft...and to think we queued for 15-20 minutes cause it was a public holiday.


Picturesque. <3

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And I quote... "Mood swings are GAY!"

Firstly, I have utterly no idea why I'm feeling so lousy these past few days.
Laugh if you will, but I've been some sort of an emotional wreck lately.
There are only a few things keeping me sane nowadays.

• Planetshakers and worship songs. All I do is keep it on repeat.
• Constant rantings to Daddy. I think He gets the worse of it, cause all I do is rant, rant, and rant.
• Those random messages. <3

I'm not afraid to admit this is my moment of weakness.
I'm not afraid to admit that I need God very badly.
And I'm not afraid to admit that I feel lonely.

It's been crazy, but I'm holding on to dear life...if you will.
Exaggerated, but I just feel insecure all of a sudden.

Spiritual attacks?
You bet!

Without a doubt, this are one of those moments when you're down and the Enemy kicks you down.
Which is the exact reason I have to reclaim that strength in Him and not succumb to this.
Is life a bed of roses?
Heck no!
God has loads of promises to us, and one of 'em promises us trials and tribulations.
But yet again...He's promised to never leave us nor forsake us.
Seriously, life would be just plain empty without Him.

Just one of those moments that God is calling me back, to spend more time.
One of those dry "desert" moments where I feel as if I've strayed away from Him.
Here's something new...

You may be spending time, doing devotion daily...but it does not mean you're close to Him.

Shocking?
Yes, even to me.
I was always under this illusion that you'll be closer to God if you spend time everyday.
But...not unless you earnestly seek Him.
Something I've learned recently, and I will do everything in my power to correct this.

Secondly, still carrying burdens for those around me, and prayer continues.
Best thing I can do.

Finally, I wished I were a better friend.
I feel like I've been neglecting those around me.
Some say it's due to work, others say it's due to busyness.

Well I say it's total nonsense.

It's funny how I was just talking to Daddy, about how I feel I've been a total failure to those around me.
It's ironic how I always treasure family, relationships and friendships...but yet it suddenly feels like I'm left with so little around me.
Someone once told me this...

"When you start working, and you settle down...you tend to lead a smaller social circle. You're busy with work, you're busy serving God, and how family becomes your immediate priority. It's normal."

But I refuse to believe that.
No matter what, my relationships with those around me I refuse to compromise.
I refuse to give in to the convenient excuse that things are the way it is because of work.

Yet sometimes it is...

However, Daddy truly knows the desires of my heart.
Just when all this was being talked with Daddy, I suddenly received this invitation to a friend's 21st birthday.
And all I could do was sat there, thanking Him for almost instantaneously answering my prayer even though I did not pray for it.

God, family, relationships, friendships, whatever it is...

I will do everything in my power to keep those that I love close by.
Defined by such characteristic, this is me...