A Tempest Beyond Measure...

Augustana - Boston

In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... you said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,

Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Yeah Boston...
Where no one knows my name.



This song has been stuck in my head ever since I heard it on American Idol a few days ago.
I think I just like the idea of going somewhere where no one knows my name, where no one knows me at all and start afresh.

I know I promised a new year's eve post, but it'll have to wait till maybe tomorrow.
Not in the right frame of mind to blog about anything much at the moment.

But...worship today was really awesome.
I believe God really encouraged and spoke through worship.
Nevertheless, as I continue to fluctuate...I believe clinging on to Him will eventually lead me to an exit from this incredibly long tunnel that I seem to be stuck in.

The most painful lesson you will ever learn is if there are people in life who mean the world to you and you'd even jump in front of a bullet for them...but they just won't do the same for you.
It hurts especially when the people you'd expect to be there for you are never there, but instead you're left all alone to crash and burn.
In this regard, God has been the only saving grace that has never left my side nor gone anywhere for that matter.

I've no idea what God is trying to teach me by allowing me to be placed in a situation of apparent loneliness, but it certainly means I need to hang on tighter to Him.
It's ironic when you need someone around, and no one is ever around.
I guess that's just the way life works. : )

I'll end today's post with some pictures.
Lerida gave me a pleasant surprise and appeared in church today!
Totally made my day.
Haven't seen her in AGES!


Brandon and Lerry @ Pan Cafe during lunch.


Ms Looi!


Lala-emo, as she calls it.


My rant buddies. : )

Still praying for a ray of sunlight somewhere.
Still praying for God to show me His purposes.
Still praying for more of Him.

And I believe it is possible to smile on the outside when the heart is breaking on the inside. He promised me.