This Heart, is Yours to Keep

Listening to: The Stand - Hillsongs UNITED
Current mood: The equivalent of despair + depression.
Current craving: Need I say more?

Good morning.
Just gonna do some updates on what's been going on.

Tuesday, 28th July 2009
After a very long time, we finally managed to find time to go out and catch up.
Though we've known each other for a few years, but the last time we got to catch up was a year or two back.
Most of the time due to schedule clashes.
So, we headed to OU to have lunch and just...catch up.
Lunch venue was at Wong Kok.


Meet Khye Ren.


Her baked cheese rice.


I on the other hand had Pork chop with black pepper sauce. (Oh, sorry but it's non-halal as you can see)

Other than that, I've been around a few places.
Dentist appointment settled with me getting anti-biotics and a specific gel for the infected gums.
Checked out Sunway college as well, and looks like that is indeed my next destination.
Next intake starts in January, so I'm pretty optimistic.

Thursday, 30th July 2009
Knowing me and my occasional absent-mindedness, I agreed to go for Shawn's final meet up before he heads off to the States and then only remembering that it's on the same day I agreed to take her out.
So much for that...
Anyway, I ended up heading to Metro to pick her up before we headed off to Midvalley to have lunch with them.
Spent most of the day at Midvalley, before the both of us headed to Subang Parade right after to run some errands.
Venue for lunch was at Little Penang Cafe.


My curry mee.


From L-R: Nic, Andrea, Jewel, and Shawn...the celebrity for the day.


I somehow think this is a very bad shot of myself. =X


I blame it on the light reflecting off the glasses.


Andrea and Shawn.


Jewel and Shawn.

It was so much fun hanging out doing random stuff, and talking about random stuff.
Even if it was plain talk, but the company matters a whole lot.
I miss you guys already.


Shawn and Matt. I'm gonna miss you buddy. 4 years is a heck of a long time.


Nic and myself.


Need I say more?

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I knew it was the day of reckoning, so to speak.
But I never prepared myself for what was to take place.
And when it came to crunch time, it all came out to the best of my ability.
And I know that in the end no matter how much it hurt, it was necessary.
I would have it no other way.

So with a brave front, I took it as it is and gave it my best.
Though it didn't sink in until I realize the impact of what was said.
And yet with all my heart, I wanted for you to believe...
But I knew I had done my part, and the rest is God's to do.

The burden for you continues, but more than that...
You continued to prove that your significance was more than mere words, mere actions.
Your very existence, your importance to me...
How much, I cannot fully comprehend nor measure the depth.
I cannot even begin to imagine the lasting impact you've given and continue to give.
The best part is...this was all done just by you being there, and me being here.

No, this is definitely the total opposite of goodbye.
Everything in me screamed for me to keep you by, and that I intend to do.
Simply because there is something about you...
Actually, everything about you that I love.
Your value to me, I doubt anything I say or do will change that.
I love you, and always will.
Heck, I'm not ashamed to say it.

But I'm holding on to the very reason behind the whole unfolding of events.
Right now, I can hear God just saying...

"My dear Son, I love you so very much...more than you ever know. Trust me, and don't give up faith because everything will turn out for good. Keep the faith. You've done your part. Leave the rest to me."

Ultimately, He holds my tomorrows in His hands.
My future in His hands are assured.
His favour on my life, no doubt so evident.
And because of how much He means to me and what He's done, this life is His.

This morning...
I remembered your question.

"How exactly can you guarantee that you're going to heaven, that this is a one way ticket?"

God gave me the answer today.
Cause everything in His Word has come true for me.
And if it says in His Word, that He has prepared a place for those of us who believe in Him...

...then in my heart, there is absolutely no doubt about it.

~ For all things work together for good to those who love Him and who are called according to His purposes [Romans 8:28]

Don't Let Me Go

Watching the sunrise as we sat side by side,
The last beams of sunlight highlighted horizon's edge,
I kept you nearby, holding you oh so tight,
Every second ticked, moments written in my book on a new page.

Right there and then, I knew deep down,
Absolutely positive, without a shadow of a doubt,
Almost like my very own princess, complete with a crown,
You flashed your ear-to-ear grin, your personal pout.

As if almost instantaneously, a time boundary non-existent,
Everything else faded, background diluted, and you were there,
Your absence left a void of the deepest depth, left me for you to yearn,
Hardest of feelings, yet nothing too hard to bear.



...it's amazing how far we've come.

~ Happiness is falling asleep next to you and waking up thinking I'm still in my dreams.

Of Colour Variations and Shiny Shoes

Romans 8:28 ~ For all things work together for good to those who love Him and who are called according to His purpose.

That was the first verse that came to my mind upon receiving my overall results.
Technically, it's not bad but yet again not up to my standards that I've set for myself.
And though my parents are pretty cool about it, I can't help but feel that I've let them down.
Even if it's not the case, I've let myself down to say the least.
But anyway, all things indeed work according to God's purposes.
Suffice to say, I'm thankful that I can officially say that I've graduated with a degree in my hands.
Convocation is in October, and that will be the official moment of stepping out of my tertiary education.
Though, there's still ACCA to look forward to.

Anyway, enough about that.
Just gonna do a lil short update.
Met up with Daniel and Jacqueline last Saturday to hang out.
Went to Digital Mall to buy some tech-y stuff before we headed off to Paramount for lunch.
Though it was just a regular meet up, but it was good catching up with the both of them.


Jacqueline & Daniel.

Yes, Daniel's face is technically like so.
His mood was fluctuating and he was extremely zonkers at one moment, and exactly that (the face in the picture) at another moment.
So, excuse him a bit. = )

Today was a bit more eventful.
Went out with parents to run some errands and then headed off to 1U to do my shopping as I prepare for the working life.
We had lunch at Delifrance prior to that.
They had a 50% off on all pasta and unlimited root beer as their set lunch offer.
I'll let the pictures do the talking.

Warning: Quite a bit of self-indulgent snapshots ahead. Beware! = )


Dad's and my spaghetti with minced lamb and dried chilly.


Here's a close-up picture.


Mum's spaghetti with olive oil sauce and sausages.


Take 1.


Take 2.


Take 3.


Take 4.


And finally, take 5.

And yesh, they were all different shirts.
I tried a few more but slipped my mind to snap a picture.
Bought some slacks, my shoes, and some other clothing items before heading back.


We dropped by Big Apple.


Notice the 4 similar donuts? That's what you get when your whole family is crazy over durian.


My awesome God-given parents. Oh, and dad was tired. Hence, the look. xD

Thank you for taking your time to take me out on my shopping spree.
Thank you for standing there, helping me to choose while giving me options and your opinions in regards to fashion sense.
And thank you for the wonderful day out you two.
As always, need I say more?
I love you both. = )

~ Multiply it by infinity, take it to the depths of forever and you'll still only have a glimpse of how much I love you.

There's always another tomorrow...

Philippians 1:21 ~ For to me, to live is Christ, to die is gain.

And God just spoke like that.
That's why He's awesome just like that.
It's when you just go through challenges, and then He speaks the next moment and you're immediately uplifted and you realize how He's never left your side for even one moment.
I find it amazing how He attends to even the smallest and minute of matters.

But that's why He is who He is isn't it?
Thank You Lord. = )

~ Love is when you're the first person in my mind when I open my eyes, and the last person in my mind before I sleep.

Over Horizon's Edge, I See You...

Listening to: Big Girls Don't Cry - Fergie
Current mood: Mixed, and not too good.
Current craving: My 'chocolate', and iced coke.

I'm resorting to emo songs.
Been really distracted by what's happened today.
Was somewhat distracted during practice, and in a very absent-minded manner did things without thinking much before realizing that I was doing the wrong thing.
Okay, it's not as bad as I make it sound.
Just one line...

I actually wonder if I can do anything right without disappointing anyone.

The question is, what if I can't?
Gee, I don't know.
I've failed my own standards I've set of myself, and probably failed a whole lot of people in the process.

My solution?
Turn my back on trying to be everything everyone else wants me to be.
I absolutely cannot be pleasing everyone.

Is it possible?
Yes it is; but there is no turning back.
True, I seek to please God and Him alone.
Too many a times, I just try too hard to make every single person around me happy.

But the reality is?
It is utterly impossible to do so.

So what are you waiting for?
Just need some time to forgive myself for the people who hate me now (and probably in the future).
Then I'll pick myself up and turn away.

You sure?
Darn right I'm sure.
I'm tired of trying to please everyone and to keep people in my social circle who cannot even be bothered to try.
I'm sorry (and this is the last time I apologize for such a case) but we all live separate lives.
I can only want to be involved in yours (even if it's a minor part) for so long, but they were right.
Separate ways is where we're ALL headed.
And if you refuse that our paths converge somewhat, then I must wish each one of you the best in your endeavors.

So what now?
I'm gonna keep those who matter to me close, that's what.
The people who care, and who are worth it will always be close.
This is my solemn promise to each and everyone of you who care.
And I bet you know who you are.


On second thought, my hands are too short.

~ I wish you were here, but you're not, you're there. There doesn't know how lucky it is.

In Your Eyes I'd Like to Stay...

Here's my second post on the movie reviews.
And below this, you'll find the tag that the cousin retagged me back with.
So, feel free to skip that if you wish.
Just gonna review the 2 movies I watched with her.


Obsessed.

To be honest, I had no idea what this movie was about. But, I knew both Beyonce and Ali Larter and I personally thought it was some sorta comedy. Turned out to be somewhat of a thriller in certain point of views. Thank God I've not been stalked to that extent yet. Ali Larter really looked obsessed (and really eye candy, for those of you who are interested) though she was okay for me.

Verdict: 6/10 Not much of a storyline, but Ali Larter looked like she could murder someone at times. She certainly put herself to full use. Wonder what any of you (guys) would do if she came on to you like that.


Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince.

Frankly, I watched cause she told me how badly she wanted to watch it. But I found the effects pretty entertaining. And if you don't read the book (like me) the storyline would actually seem pretty alright. I'll admit, Hermione was definitely eye candy (Guys, take note).

Verdict: 6.5/10 The movie was okay considering I've never watched it before nor had any idea what the heck it was about. So yeah...

Well, that's all for now.
Here's that tag for Ashley.

1. The person who tagged you is :
Ashley Chan.

2. Your relationship with him/her is :
Cousins/Someone who I trust and who I rant to. = )

3. Your first impression of him/her is:
Noisy. Oops, I meant outspoken. Hahaha!

4. The most memorable moments with he/she is:
When I pushed her into the swimming pool beside her home. Rawr! = )

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you is:
Why are you so tall 1? Can stop growing taller ah?

7. If he/she became your lover, what should he/she improve that:
Eew...no thank you!

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, what will you do:
I'll stomp on her and jump on her as if she were a trampoline. xD

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
Cause she doesn't wanna pay for my trip to go see her in Aussieland.

10. The most desired things you want to do for him/her now is:
To go Aussieland and see her. (Faster pay for my ticket la. Nowadays very cheap)

11. Your overall impression on him/her is:
She's cheeky, a handful to have around, but I totally love her for it. = )

12. The characteristic you hate most about yourself:
If I'm not mistaken, the tag I did before this stated that I think too much, yes?

13. The most ideal person you want to be is:
My other tag has this answer as well.

14. For people who care and love you, say something to them:
YOU = AWESOME!
ME = LOVE YOU ALL!

15. Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you:
Nyeh, whoever wants to do this.

PS: Question 6 is missing. Bleah...

On a separate note, I feel like such a disappointment to friends around me.
So, to whoever reading this (who I actually do know personally); I'm sorry for being a disappointment and being never good enough.
I guess this is partly due to the high standards I set for myself to achieve, and personally it feels like I've failed everyone around me.
I AM SORRY!

~ Some girls are worth fighting for, but some are worth dying for.

Of City Lights and Sights

It's almost the weekends again.
Another week till July ends.
Talk about time flying around.
This is insane...

Anyway, the week has been pretty eventful here and there.
Been running around errands...


Jamming sessions.

And in times like these, I seriously wished I had a better camera.
Lighting too romantic for me to be playing Hillsongs and Planetshakers. xD
And then, there was the bumming around at home.
Last Sunday, went out with her to 1U and we ended up catching Obsessed.
No pictures then, cause we were so busy walking around that I kinda forgot to take out my camera.

But, there are pictures from yesterday's day out.
Believe it or not, it was my first time solely taking public transportation to KL.
Took her out to KL for a whole day of walking, catching up, and just taking in the sights of the city (though there wasn't much besides brick and mortar).
And since she was dying to catch Harry Potter, I ended up catching it though I'm no fan of it.
It turned out pretty alright in my opinion; but partially cause I didn't read the book.
So, movie reviews in my next post.


Our first stop. Recognize this? Yesh, Pavilion!


Starhill Gallery! Random shot.

Couldn't decide on lunch.
So, we walked around supposing to head to KFC, but ended up having lunch at the food court.
Variety wasn't the problem. Deciding was the problem.


Hello you!


Her assam laksa.


Beef with dried chilly and onions.

After movie and lunch, met up with Julian for a while.
Then, headed off to KLCC for our next destination.
After walking around, we went to the park.
While sitting in the park, it was total peace and serenity.
In a way, I envy those who had the time to relax at the park after work everyday.
It was just...beautiful. = )


Taken from Kinokuniya.


My camera skills still kinda suck. Ugh...


Taken from the park.


Again, taken from the park.


Water dispensers.


Behold, Petronas' Twin Towers. Rawr!


Take 1.


This is goodbye, from us...

~ If I were given a dollar for every time you were in my thoughts, I'd only have one because you never left them.

PS: Thank God for answered prayers. Awesome weather throughout the whole day.

She is love...

Hello!
The weekends are finally here.
Yesterday was my last day of work as well.
Don't ask me, but I'm ecstatic.
It feels so carefree to not worry about the weekends finishing fast and dreading another week again.
Though I'll be slacking quite a bit this week, but heck...
I rather be bumming around a bit, than to go through everyday and feeling terrible.

Anyway, here are my mini updates.
Just snippets of what happened this week.


Fruit party, sorta.


Supper @ SS2; durian fest after prayer meeting.


Thank you for the treat! Thank you for always being who you are! *Excuse the terrible quality. Phone camera. xD


Dad and mum.


Durian lovers, this is your place to be. Buffet available as well.


Jamming session @ 12 Studio, Subang.


Part of the band. Johnston (lead guitarist) and Andrew (bassist).


My love.


Last but not least, picture of the week. They have to paste such a notice on an ATM machine? Haha!

Till my next post, this is Matt signing off.

~ Every time you look at me and see me smiling, just know that I am thinking of you.